Nothingness

Day 143: 07/22/2013 Entry

 

I have been at my Dad’s two days now.

I feel absolutely nothing; not sad, not hurt, not regretful, not angry. I’m feeling like I did the first month after Brandon’s death: not much of anything. I haven’t even cried since moving. I cried plenty while packing, but none at all since then.

I want to feel something.

The nothingness bothers me.