Day 99: 06/08/2013 Entry
I don’t understand why the sun still shines, why the birds still sing, why the wind still blows, why flowers still bloom, why everyone goes on with their simple, ordinary lives, when Brandon is dead.
The fact is, if I look at the world closely enough, I see that absolutely nothing has been changed by his absence in it, nothing…the world keeps on spinning.
There is nothing noticeably altered…nothing, except the gaping, bleeding hole his absence punched in the center of my being.
Somehow, that seems wrong.
He was a wonderful, beautiful, smart person, full of potential, and the world should be forever and permanently altered by his absence.
And that’s wrong.
Instead, it’s me that’s permanently and forever altered.