Glimmer of hope

Day 110: 06/19/2013 Entry Computer Guy. I’m not sure what to do about him. He confuses me. I find myself having very strong feelings towards him, which is just completely unexpected. I thought that I was broken, damaged, crippled and couldn’t feel these things anymore; apparently, not, because here these feelings are, staring me in …

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Learn to play the cards you’re dealt

Day 109: 06/18/2013 Entry Today is Brandon's brother's birthday…he’s not doing very well. I can understand why; Brandon isn’t here to call or Skype him and say “BROTHER!!! IT’S YOUR BURFFDAYYYYY!” in that silly, high pitched voice of his. It’s just one more glaring reminder of our new reality, and our new reality sucks. Yesterday …

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The world keeps on spinning

Day 99: 06/08/2013 Entry I don’t understand why the sun still shines, why the birds still sing, why the wind still blows, why flowers still bloom, why everyone goes on with their simple, ordinary lives, when Brandon is dead. The fact is, if I look at the world closely enough, I see that absolutely nothing …

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